I'm currently working @ DirecTV as a customer svc rep in the "advanced" technical department *sighs* ... and I'm just trying to figure out when, not what I'm going to do with my life, because it seems I've gotten myself into a rut or slum as some people would call it. I just call it laziness and procrastination with a bit of a self control issue as well.
Web Design is my cup-o-tea but I'd certainly like to dabble in current and emerging technologies, maybe study a bit of photography, or video editing/making, although, I really do just need to get my foot in the door @ this point so I might be thinking about some sort of a help desk job in IT at a local bank or something. I turned down a job recently because it was for a church, and this is when the "slum" really started to set in, so it was more than 1 reason for me not taking the job. My room is a mess, my roomate, and a possible future roomate want to buy a house with me.
Seriously, who buys a house with a couple of close friends? I mean, the house is only $135k and it's in a developing area and I don't plan on leaving that house for a while if I bought it, but my concern is when one of my roomates decides to move out for whatever reason, I'm going to have to split the 1/3rd of the monthly mortgage payment just to keep the house. Plus I'm a first time buyer, it will be under my name, and although I do have a nice credit score, I don't hardly have any credit cept my truck which is almost paid off.
@ work, I've developed a habit for taking things to the extreme when unnecessary such as taking the max amount of days off in 1 month as those absences roll off the radar after 3 months, so I must wait till September before my first absence rolls off, and October 23rd till I'm even mentioned for a promotion. I hate my job because I do the same thing over and over again literally, and it's easy as hell, but the customers are usually stupid as ****, some of the policies are whack, and my schedule is ****, tues/wed off and working from 3:30pm to midnight.....
I don't have a budget setup, nor have I even balanced a checkbook, which is probably why I got 8 nsf fees from my bank last month, I stay up till 6-7am and wake up anywhere from 2-3pm right before I gotta get rdy for work, and do it all over again. I write things down and stick them in my pocket and somehow, I never read that **** again like a to-do list.
On April 1st I rear ended someone on my way to work because I was gonna be late..... And I'm having issues with my truck, like I think I might have a brake fluid leak, but I haven't taken it into the shop @ all. Once I pay my truck off in a couple months, I then have to start paying off my new 62" tv which I will be paying on till July of next year. So The only thing for me @ this point if I even think about buying a house is to get a better paying and better enjoyable job.
These are just a few things I've got going on right now, and I guess all I need is motivation and to just DO, instead of thinking about **** all the time. Anywho, I turn 21 on August 23rd, so hopefully that will be a turning point in my life as I've got some pretty influential family members some of which are in computer fields, like one uncle works on williams company oracle databases and the other uncle is a software engnineer, both got laid off, and the other worked @ worldcom lol. They've got a lot of knowledge and experience, and I remember my uncle when he just got his masters degree, and remembering in fine detail of him saying that it only took him 20 years to finally get it.
I think I've got a good head on my shoulders, and I know I can change, but I won't bore y'all with my senseless ramblings any further. Time for me to goto sleep... Work again tomorrow.....
___________________
